Hello there! I know that I have not been on my blog recently. I have been super busy between work, church, church functions, family get togethers, a family trip to Disneyworld…I haven’t had much time this past year. I would like to get back into the habbit of writing on this blog, since I do enjoy it so much. And I also want to continue blogging so that I can share my story and inspire others to think outside of the box, but most importantly to kneel before the merciful God of the universe, repent and ask him into their hearts.
That’s where I’m at this evening as I am writing this. I was alone in our apartment tonight, cleaning and listening to music. I put on The Story of Your Life (hence this posts title) by Matthew West. Let me just say that he is an incredible Christian singer/songwriter. If anyone who reads this is looking for inspiring, convicting, uplifting, hope-filled music, check him out. His words will change your life forever!
Anyways at first I was just listening, picking up trash and doing the laundry. After some work, I sat down on the couch with the booklet from the CD and I began to read the stories that inspired the songs.
Side note: The Story of Your Life is an album where all of the songs were inspired by the trials and testimonies that Matthew West recieved while staying in a backwoods cabin in Tennesse for two months. They are all real stories and they all have something to tell us and teach us.
End side note.
I had known some of them. But I was looking at the story behind the song titled Broken Girl. Matthew West said that he was shocked to have recieved so many stories about how girls had been sexually abused when they were younger. He also said that one in every four testimonies that he recieved were about this. And than he went on to say that this was the very first song that he had ever written out of anger. That was the first thing that hit me. a man, who had never met any of these girls, felt angry for what had happened to them.
Which begged one question: why?
1 Peter 4:8 ESV
Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins.
James 5:16 ESV
Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working.
Proverbs 27:17 ESV
Iron sharpens iron, and one man sharpens another.
We are to love and build each other up, to protect each other and care for one another, both within the kingdom of God and outside it.
While anger is sin and never justified, I felt that I understood his wrath. It wasn’t a selfish, prideful anger. He was upset that these girls had their innocence and childhoods ripped from them by selfish, sinful people. Even though he never suffered through their pain, (I don’t know, maybe he did) he understood. And I understand because I know someone who suffered the same abuse…my mother. While I have never felt her pain, it made me angry to know that someone would hurt her like that. I wanted no mercy for the person who did such awful things to her. God showed me that that anger was wrong and sinful. But my point is that, even though we have never been through their exact trials, we still feel for them, because we all know what “sexual abuse” implies. It encompasses a lot. And it ultimately encompasses tons of pain and torment for the victims.
I guess what I am attempting to say, is that we get angry, or sad, or upset, when we hear about other people’s tragic pasts and struggles. But just because we haven’t been through that, doesn’t mean that we don’t understand, at least to some extent. And that certainly doesn’t mean that we can’t help them through it.
In today’s society, we are brought up, believing that experience is everything. (Actually we are raised believing that education is everything, but that is a whole other set of posts by it’s self!)
How many people have been fed these lines at least once in their lifetime?
“You don’t know anything about love unless you’ve been in a relationship”.
“You don’t understand my pain”.
“You don’t know what it is like to be me”.
And maybe I don’t know what it is like to be “you”. But I know what it is like to be me. And I know what my own pain feels like. And even though we suffer through different trials, we’re all the same deep down inside. We are broken, helpless sinners who desparately need to be saved. And I think that that is ultimately where Matthew West’s anger came from. He wanted all of those girls to know that there is hope for them, no matter how dark things may seem. And he was angry at those men for plunging those girls into lives of anguish and dispair. Because I know somebody who has been through that I understand where his anger came from. And I truly feel for each and every one of those brave women who shared their testimonies. My struggles are much different. But that doesn’t make them any easier, or any less real.
The last thing that I wanted to add was this:
We all have stories. Deep, complex stories, that have torn us up and beaten us down. There are hundreds upon hundreds of plot twists and scary moments. And things that we’ve regretted doing, or not doing. And maybe there are more calm parts to one person’s story than another’s. No matter what, we all have testimonies. It’s the Story of Your Life and it is most definitely a story worth sharing with the world!